IVF Was The BEST Decision I Ever Made

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Finish the Sentence Friday

“The best decision I ever made…was going through IVF.”  

 So many decisions have been made over the years that I am thankful for. Deciding to talk to that cute guy in my college literature class. Deciding to date him. Deciding to marry him. All have been wonderful, despite all our ups and downs, it was all worth it. But the BEST decision I ever made was to go through with In Vitro Fertilization. We had tried other fertility treatments, but THIS was the big one. It was going to be a long road and I was ready.

We took the class on how to properly fill syringes with doses of medicine and how to to properly inject the hormones. We filled out all the paperwork and waited for the delivery. Though when I emptied out the huge box and separated the multitude of syringes, needles sizes, hormones, medicines, and syringes I was utterly overwhelmed.

A full-blown panic attack ensued when some of the hormones did not match what the nurse gave me. I began sobbing and called the nurse who calmly explained that those were generic hormones and went through each item with me. In Vitro is NOT for the weak-hearted, looking at those needles scared me to death. Especially the progesterone one…it was so long, meant to go through fat.

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My friend Cathy can attest to my break-down. I called her and explained it all, she made me laugh as usual. My friend Kit can attest to the horrors of injects as she was there for the VERY first injection that brought Dino into my life.

Sadly I was bloated and had undiagnosed preeclampsia during my pregnancy. Sadly I did not get to enjoy my sister’s wedding as much as I would have liked to. Sadly I delivered early due to complications from the undiagnosed preeclampsia.

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What it all worth it? ABOSLUTELY!

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What is the best decision you ever made? 

Thirteen Years

Thirteen years of marriage, love, fights, memories, and dreams…

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13 years of marriage. 13 years! Wow! How fast time flies…. In all those years we have experienced.

  • owning a condo
  • becoming dog parents
  • dealing with 6 years of infertility 
  • becoming parents
  • losing a job
  • losing our condo
  • moving into an apartment
  • starting over 
  • planning birthday parties for our son
  • letting go of old dreams
  • creating new dreams
  • dealing with loss and grief
  • opening up to love and hope
  • laughing at old memories
  • creating new memories

we’ve been a lot of ups and downs in the past thirteen years. Some times were tough, but in comparison I think we are pretty lucky.

We have changed over the years, but through it all we are still here and happy.

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Learning Never Ends

 

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Finish the Sentence Friday

“I’m done with school, but learning never ends” 

I have quite a few degrees and certifications. You didn’t know that? Well I don’t like to brag, but I am truly proud of all that I have accomplished.

I have an associate’s degree, bachelor’s degree, and a master’s degree. I have three certifications that allow me to work as an elementary school teacher, special education teacher, and a literacy specialist. In addition I am certified in levels 1-6 of a multisensory language instruction program. I started teaching 1999 and have been working in education ever since, except for the one year I was laid off. That is a total of THIRTEEN years as a teacher, TEN of those as reading specialist.

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As I sit here typing this I am shocked at how long I have been teaching and how far I have come. WOW! What a career, so many achievements, accomplishments, struggles, changes, successes and failures. I do love what I do and am always learning something new.

I try to take a course or two online every year. This not only keeps me informed and up to date on current procedures in education, but provides me with professional development hours to keep my certifications.

I was once asked if I would go for my doctorate. Nope, not interested, but I would like to earn my certification for levels 7-12 of the multisensory language instruction program.

Outside of education, I would love to

  • learn Italian
  • take pottery course
  • learn Pilates
  • take cooking classes

 What do you still want to learn? 

I CAME OUT STRONGER and WISER

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Finish the Sentence Friday

This week’s sentence is I wasn’t myself when I…”

I wasn’t myself when I...had Dino. I had undiagnosed preeclampsia and had an emergency c-section at 35 weeks.  I had to be let into a secured and locked room just to hold my son for a half an hour at a time. I had to watch other moms all around me get to hold, see, feed, and love their babies whenever they wanted. I had to leave the hospital without my newborn and drive everyday just to see him. I had listen to other people tell me stories and unsolicited advice on how to relax and just feel better. I had to have people look at me like I was suffering from depression when I was just upset that I couldn’t take my newborn son home. I had to go through two months of breast infections until I just gave up and chose formula and left go of the guilt.

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I wasn’t myself when I…When I was laid off for budget cuts and couldn’t find another teaching job. Why pay an experienced, highly qualified and certified reading specialist when you can hire a new teacher and pay them much less? I had to watch as our money slowly slipped away and our condo that we owned for ten years was no longer ours. I had pack up and move to an apartment and let go of dreams that I thought would be easily attainable, but no longer.

What did I learn form all this? I learned to trust my gut even when everyone is telling you it’s nothing or you should do this and that. I learned to trust in my instincts as a mom and know what I was doing with my son was the best for both of us. I stopped worrying and wishing and started focusing on what beautiful joys and blessings I have. 

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I’m a mom! I’m a mom of a thriving, wild, intelligent, sweet, caring, happy, healthy, and energetic boy.  We are living in place with a backyard for Balboa and Anthony to play. A place where Dino can ride his bike, make chalk creations on the driveway, and play in a little pool. We have a garage and basement for storage and can grill whenever we choose.

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look at all this space momMy dreams and wishes have come true…just a bit differently. I am stronger and wiser. I am happier knowing that God is there, watching us and guiding us. Sure the roads are not easy, but the rewards are wonderful. I am happy where I am now. I am happy with what I have and appreciate what I have.

 

Dino and I reviewed the book

No Jumping on the Bed by Tedd Arnoldover at

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Do you think we both liked it? Does Dino jump on HIS bed? How about mommy?

Well go THERE to find the answer.

MORE CROCHETING AND ORGANIZATION

 

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Thankful for….

cheap but practical drawers for storage in my kitchen. With a super small kitchen I really need more space. Having four extra drawers helps a great deal and I even have the top for extra space when cooking or cleaning.

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 cheap but practical drawers for storage in our dining areas. The former drawer for our utensils is now the much needed “junk and catch all” drawer. So much easier reaching for napkins and utensils right next to the table.

dining drawers PNGThe other day in daycare, the artist Bill Hernandez came in and did a caricature of Dino…I plan on framing it for his room.

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My crocheting is getting better and I am now making granny squares with leftover yarn. I found great tutorials on you tube from Yolanda Soto Lopez her videos are easy to follow
and instructional.

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 I made a scarf, yeah it’s short, but I don’t like having long scarves that get stuck in your coat or are too long. This size is perfect for my neck.

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I made Dino a hat…one that is perfect for him. Sure it’s longer than I wanted, but he’ll
grow into it.

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I even made a hat for myself…it came out REALLY big…but I used some creativity and sewed a string into it and pulled it tight across…so it looks fitted and kind of like a beret…I do like that it’s bigger so it won’t crush my curls.

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GOD BLESS AMERICA

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 I may not always agree with society as a whole or the people who represent our government, but….

I am THANKFUL and PROUD to be an American.

I have the freedom to speak my mind, whether it be to voice my opinion or fight back against what I believe to be an injustice.

I have the right to choose what religion to worship and what to believe

I can read a not only a tribute to the President, but also a satire and complaint about the President as well…and if I so desire I can either write my praises or complaints about him.

My son can choose where to go to college, where to live, and what his career will be.

I can vote and voice my opinion on candidates and even voice my opinion on the results of an election

I can borrow audio books of my choice from the library and listen to gory crime dramas, romances, or an uncensored comedienne’s biography.

I have many certifications and degrees and chose what career I wanted. 

I can freely blog about my life and comment on other blogs, dress how I choose, wear my hair to my liking, and choose my friends.

J9Designs ROCKS

So, I have been wanting my OWN domain for a while now…but the thought of doing this on my own was scary and tedious.

Well after getting to know Janine from

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and her awesome business
J9 Designs
she did it all for me!
It was worth every penny, a wise investment. I know I would have not only had a meltdown, but would have deleted my blog and caused bodily harm to innocent people.
Thankfully Janine saved my blog and innocent people everywhere. She easily transferred it all to hot monster and added everything I needed.
She even graciously accepted my psychotic and apologetic emails, mostly at the same time.
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Crocheting and The Space Thief

 

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~*~THANKFUL~*~

Thankful that Dino is more independent and was great in the mall. He walked beside me ran ahead of me, but stayed closed and stopped when I told him too. He did fall down all the time, but with Dino he only has TWO speeds…fast and faster. He listened while on the elevator and helped me pick out earrings. He waited patiently on line for the carousel and sat ate lunch nicely next to me. There are days I am floored by what a big boy I have.

I am thankful that Alanna suggested I start crocheting. It REALLY is easier for me. I am getting the hang of crocheting. While I am still a beginner and could probably only makes scarves, I am having a blast. It’s a thin scarf, but I am so gosh darn proud.

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I’ve made a few errors, but got the hang of “turning the chain” but I just say making the length for the next row.

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Now I am starting a new scarf, this one goes ten across…I’m getting braver and saved the nicer color blend for when I got the hang of crocheting. I can’t wait to see the final project. My mother crochets…I NEVER KNEW THAT, or maybe I did and just forgot…I’ve been forgetting quite a bit over the years. So maybe she can help me with ending the scarf instead of just making a knot. I wonder if I can add tassels or fringe?

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In just two days I’m making great progress, don’t you think?

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Hubby, the Space Thief

Hubby has taken over the closet, in fact the entire bedroom. He has three containers, two under the bed and one behind the dresser, most of the dresser drawers and 3/4 of the closet. I have 1/4 of the closet, one shelf in the closet, and three drawers in the dresser. 

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The lack of closet space is WHY my clothes are on the dresser in this utter mess.

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I know my mother is freaking out that I am showing this mess on my dressers…but I know I am not the only one with this disaster. I am going to head over to Bed, Bath, and Beyond tomorrow with the coupon and see if I can purchase  plastic or wicker drawers to put on top of the dresser.  We rent a small apartment, so we can’t really change any of the structure. So that is why I though I would use space by going up instead of taking precious and limited floor space.

Any suggestions or ideas?

Reading, Eating, and Having Fun

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Thankful that Dino LOVES to read books and learn. Reading to him, even while in the womb, has made a difference. I hope his love of knowledge will continue.

Thankful that I have a child to feed, even though he is PICKY!

Thankful that I have a Television on which to watch shows. God knows when I want to shut down my brain it’s fun to watch and get lost in the show.

Thankful that I had a father who loves his kids and a hubby who loves his son. Sure was a great Father’s Day at the Nature Center.

Thankful that I have child and know I am blessed. I love having fun with Dino and creating memories that will last a lifetime.

Thankful that I have a son who makes my life interesting. While I miss the little baby he once was, I love the boy he is becoming.

What are you thankful for?

It’s Quiet Right Now

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As I write my Thankful Thursday post, it’s Wednesday night and everyone is either sleeping or relaxing. A perfect time to write my post.

I’m thankful that my son is sleeping in his room, probably dreaming about dinosaurs.

I’m thankful that Balboa is sleeping quietly on the couch.

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I’m thankful that Nemo is happy and playful in his tank, at least I hope he is.

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I’m thankful I have a job, a full time job, in September.

I’m thankful that my mother proof read a reading report for me (don’t worry I changed all identifying details).

I’m thankful that son is transitioning into his “fours classroom” at daycare with no problems.

I’m thankful that I am alive and living this wonderful life. It may not be what I expected, but I am pretty darn happy.